cutting is easy its holding on thats hard.
At 9:19 p.m. on 2003-08-20

i dont care anymore.i'm being a hypitcite and giving up..i'm not gunna die i'm just gunna see whats inside if blood is really red.just curoius i guess.naw maybe i want i'm such a damn drama queen....but-

it feels like everything is different now.but yet nothing as changed i'm still the same.life is still the same.

i got compilmented on my eyes today.someone said that they we beautiful.i replied by saying"there only blue big deal."

and the answer i got back was wierd((and i thought i was obessed))

the answer:there like knives of trigun.and the guy just walked away.

it was wierd it was one of those really strange things that you replay in your head about a million times to figure out what it means and what ingore the cutting shit i'm not gunna give up.happend..HERES MORE MIXED UP FEELINGS

life is-

can i get back to you on that?cuz i dont even know right now

drama queen at her best.

looking for a way out.

so many lies

so many truths

finding a way to end the pain end the hurt

end it all.

i'm falling.

*_*

falling

bleeding

crying

dieing

scaring

cutting

wishing

feeling.

em i suppose to be falling

its nothing i know its just a couple of words you tell someone how you reallly feel..hopeing it wont hurt them or you.but in the end it hurts everyone.i'm not afaird of pain i'm not afiard to cry.the only fear i have is to die.

writing helps writeing makes everything seem so much better.now i know how britteny feels how "goths" feel((like how they hate everything and the hole doom thing))its hard to survive alone.with a past such as my own.but i will hold on i will not give up.you cant hold me down~

feeelings emotions sometimes i wish they'd go away just for one day.to not feel to be inhuman.now that would be cool.

love

dieing

love

crying

love

cheating

love

betraeling

love

bleeding

love

killing

love

whats so good about love? i see nothing exept you.

for love and peace

~rem

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